just when i decided not to believe in it any more it stops by to say hi again.

i think i might love her........

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this computer really es me off!!! god damnit! i dont even know wut the fuk to say im not just ed at it but other things too. and missing her dont help to much school is not this monday but the next and not to menchion the fact that its is gonna suck sooo bad seeing her knowing that she is over me. when i still feel the same for her. but wutever. its just gonna be wierd. i still miss her but l8ly it seems that she is WAY to good for me now. and i guess i should feel bad for ever wasting a moment of her time by saying hi or something along those lines. but i dont so it. why the fuk does life have to be so damn hard?!?! and wut the hell is up with every one thinking im a hick??? do i wear cowboy boots no! do i like the damn rodieo? no! do horses smell like to me? yes! do i fuk any one in my own line? no! there for byt definition i am not a fukin hick!! and yes i riped it off a movie but i dont fukin care cuz it holds true!!! so fuk it!!!!!

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a convo

thecommonloser: OK IM BACK
thecommonloser: HET TRAVIS
hiub713: SWEET
thecommonloser: **HEY
hiub713: hello..
thecommonloser: wuts up
hiub713: nothing really
hiub713: im really tired
hiub713: i want my pain killers but i cant find them
thecommonloser: why
hiub713: idk
thecommonloser: oh ok then
hiub713: i sorta feel like taking some so that they make me sick or really tired so that i fall asleep
thecommonloser: oh i see sometimes i feel the need to sit in jello
hiub713: yes
thecommonloser: but thats just me
hiub713: jello is sweet
hiub713: if i could sit in a vat of jello i would
thecommonloser: i sat in a tub
thecommonloser: there is a pic of it on myspace
thecommonloser: before the sitting took place
hiub713: ah
hiub713: i saw that
hiub713: grape jello
thecommonloser: heck yes its the best kind
hiub713: i bet
hiub713: accually im more of a cherry person
thecommonloser: have you no taste buds?!?!
thecommonloser: jk
thecommonloser: cherry is good too
hiub713: yea i remember 5th grade, i was the only one who liked cherry ummmm what are those things.......oh jolly ranchers
hiub713: i have a small memory
thecommonloser: its ok i still have my tonsile so i kno how it is
hiub713: i probably wont remember waht i said to u tomarrow
hiub713: what does tonsils have to do with anything
thecommonloser: YOUR NOT THE BOSS OF ME!!!!
hiub713: ?
thecommonloser: no i just wanted to see if that yould catch your eye or not
hiub713: whats an eye?
hiub713: oh these things
hiub713: ok
hiub713: i feel weird
hiub713: *sigh* shit
thecommonloser: ok?
hiub713: not really
hiub713: wow
hiub713: if i wernt tired id probably be freakin out right now
hiub713: yay for freakin out
thecommonloser: yay!!!
thecommonloser: but why
thecommonloser: did u get it
thecommonloser: srry wrong im
thecommonloser: so........how bout this weather
hiub713: its hott
hiub713: and windy
thecommonloser: ummm......i think sometimes that one day chickens well have an uprising and an equal rights movement
thecommonloser: it concerns me deeply
hiub713: eh ill be dead by then so what ev
hiub713: but yes, chickens need rights too
hiub713: even tho i eat them
thecommonloser: i think the man will set his foot down and smoosh them before it finishes first then and only then i will be petrafied by chickens and all other farm animals
hiub713: ok, thats kinda cool. my mom wants to live on a farm
hiub713: grow her own stuff
hiub713: be all, earthly
thecommonloser: watch out for goats they atract farmers on a subconcious level

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hey i havent been here in a little while. my dad is gone as u prolly kno from my myspace. umm at the moment that stupid thing is being jewish cuz i can only go to like 3 profiles or so im not sure exactly how many but its 4 or under so yeah im guessing 3. ummmm as most of u kno well i think u kno but im not sure weather or not u have picked up on it or not but neways for some time i have been depressed but not so much nemore. yeah i still miss her and have all the same feelings for her but recently i have just felt like, well that guy from office space ya kno very passive of everything it feels great. i still get angry at things and stuff like that but i dunno. cant say i dont like this feeling cuz it compleatly covers up the feeling of lonlyness that i have. damn i really spelled that wrong. picture this, at sometime every one tries to hide a feeling from someone. now true i do it with all of them all of the time but imagin if you could not just hide them from others but also yourself. dont get this confused with being numb ive been that one hell of alot its not the same. you igknolage your feelings but you just dont take them into concideration. its great at least for now but who cares about time in advance

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my dad is comming today! i cant wait

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god damnit

i did something i shouldnt have i dont want to say im not proud of it because i dont want to hurt ne feelings but.......well i wouldnt have done it if i wasnt under the influence lets just leave it at that. im gonna have to tell her and i dont wanna also im gonna have to talk about it with someone[a sertin person]..............this is gonna cause sooo much friggin drama i can already tell. and we were so close and doing welljust the other day......


......god damnit

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i think she is seriously ed at me. and last night when i was trying to sleep i realized something all these guys im getting ed at for trying to go out with her now that she is single...im no better then ne of them cuz really im doing the same trying to go out with her. so......i guess that makes me a hipocrit but still i gotta say FUK THEM!

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